A Star Trek: The Next Generation story by Babs Bunny
Let's say I'm omnipotent- not like god, or your mother, but like a dream that convinces you that you're falling. - from What You Want by Rebecca Cook  
The away mission wasn't initially going to be that long. The object
of the mission was to quietly observe a newfound pre-warp civilization
and study the resulting findings on these inhabitants and their
way of life. A simple task, but at the same time, there were some
new elements and previously unheard of matter discovered on the
planet itself, and so a more thorough research was undoubtedly required.
Among the candidates picked for the away team was Ensign Alpine
Arcticfox, a young vulpinoid, hailing from planet Versallis. Having
only been on the Enterprise for only a little over a year, he had
proven himself to be a formidable crewmate in the engineering department,
and was due to be promoted to the rank of Lieutenant Junior Grade
within the next month. Initially it was questionable as to whether
or not the vulpinoid would be a suitable choice for the away team.
There was always a chance that circumstance or dire measure could
require that the crew fit in with their surroundings on the planet.
due to his appearance, this was something that Alpine would have
a problem with, as, unlike most of the other crewmates, he didn't look humanoid.
Standing at roughly 5'7", Alpine looked like a bipedal sentient
fox. Thick white fur covered his body, and his hands were more
like paws than anything. his black tipped ears stood up in an alert
fashion, and he had a well-pronounced fox's muzzle. And poking
out from a hole in the uniform trousers tailored just for him, was
his long bushy fox tail, white as the rest of him, but black-tipped
like his ears. Appearance aside, it was a well-known fact that
Alpine was quite adept at elctronics, and was a whiz at learning
new equipment. There were several new tools that were going to
be involved when studying this new civilization and planet, and
these tools were things that Alpine had already mastered, having
been briefed on them recently. So the decision had been made.
Alpine would join the project, and rather than do field work in
an invisibility suit as some of the other crewmembers would be doing,
he would stay at the mainbase and serve as one of the mechanical
overseers, while teaching the others how to use the new equipment.
Unfortunately there was one crewmember who wasn't going to be on
the away team. After the incident on the Ba'Ku planet, it had been
decided that Starfleet couldn't afford any more malfunctions or
mistakes, should there be the threat of enemy fire. As it was,
he was a crucial individual to Starfleet, and his presence was required
more on board the bridge of the Enterprise, than it was down on
the planet. This individual was of course, Lieutenant Commander
Data: operations manager and second officer to the Enterprise..and Ensign Arcticfox's lover.
Alpine relayed the news of the project the day he was assigned,
which was two days before the mission, after the two had gotten
off duty and were sitting in the ship's lounge. "It's a real honour
to be picked for this," he had said. "But..I really wish you could
come with me Data. I mean..it's going to be a whole month without
you. It won't be the same sleeping at night without you to snuggle
up with." He laid his hands over Data's and looked into his amber
eyes, a sad smile playing on his muzzle. Data merely nodded and
cocked his head. "True. However, this is a crucial mission, and
personal relations cannot interfere with the progress of Starfleet.
We shall simply have to adjust until the project is over." Data
spoke with a familiar matter-of-fact tone to his voice, and outwardly
he seemed as though his emotion chip had been turned off at the
moment. However, inside his heart was aching. Alpine gave the
android's hands a soft squeeze and sighed. "Yeah, that's true.
I'm sure we can survive through this. All part of the job, right?"
the fox grinned, his positive attitude coming into play. He beeped
Data's nose and then chuckled. "C'mon, let's hit the bar. I hear
they have a new strawberry pineapple beverage that I wanna try."
As Alpine made his way over to the bar, Data managed a smile himself and followed suit.
*****
The next day wasn't an easy one for the android. Alpine's team
would be departing tomorrow morning, and the today seemed to be
going entirely too quickly. And the more it progressed and the
trip loomed closer, the more emotions conflicted with each other
in the android's positronic net. Several times that day he considered
very seriously twitching his head in the way that would simply turn
off his emotion chip. But he stopped himself, as the captain's
words echoed in his head about not hiding from his emotions. Facing
emotions that one did not necessarily wish to face was something
humans did every day, as they did not have the luxury of a switch
to shut them down like Data had.
Bridge duty was uneventful that day and somehow Data it through,
performing as well as he usually did. Which wasn't too hard because
one of the advantages of being an android was the ability to concentrate
on hundreds of things at once without missing a beat. However,
no matter how many things he concentrated on, or how many tasks
he performed, Alpine's departure seemed to be the most prominent
thought in his head. After duty was over he was quick to take his
leave, and instead of heading down to the lounge to meet Alpine
as he normally did, he made his way back to his quarters where he
sat brooding on his couch gently petting his orange tabby cat Spot,
until the door chimes to his quarters sounded.
"Enter," he called out by force of habit. Alpine came striding
into the room, and found Data on the couch.
"There you are!" the vulpinoid stated. "I've been looking everywhere
for you! Why didn't you come to the lounge after duty?"
"Because I did not feel like frequenting the lounge today." Data replied simply.
Alpine looked concerned. "Why not? You feeling alright?"
"Yes. All systems are functioning within their proper parameters.
I did a self-diagnostic today and nothing appears to be--"
"You know what I mean," Alpine interrupted gently, sitting down
beside the android and running his clawed fingers over the android's
arm soothingly. "What's bothering you?"
Data started to open his mouth to quote more self-diagnostic results
but then closed it again, changing his mind. Finally he looked
away and sighed. "I...do not wish you to leave," he admitted sadly.
Alpine's ears drooped and he gathered Data into a hug. "I figured
that's what it was." He kissed Data on the cheek and then put a
finger under his chin, softly turning the android's face to meet
his. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"Because I should be happy for you. Discovering a new form of civilization
is a very big project, and the participants for the resulting away
missions are chosen very carefully. You are correct, Alpine. Being
picked for this project was an honour. As a Starfleet officer you
have great potential and you have no doubt proven your prowess.
I know you will do a good job." Alpine smiled a little and nodded
acknowledgingly as Data spoke. The android paused, swallowing,
and then continued. "At the same time....I do not wish you to go.
I will miss you very much and the ship will seem very lonely without
you. I am aware of the fact that I have other friends to spend
time with and that there are numerous ways to occupy my time until
your return. But you are not like my other friends. I love you.
You mean much much more to me, and..and the fact that I will not
be able to see you for an entire month is what hurts."
"Oh...oh sweetie.." Alpine said softly, shaking his head sadly.
"I'll miss you too. You know I will. It kills me that you can't
come along." He held Data close and rocked him gently. Data returned
the hug and for a long time the two silently sat on the couch in
a tight embrace. Finally Alpine licked the android's ear and grinned.
"Hey...it's our last night together for a while. Why don't we make it something special?"
Data cocked his head, intrigued. "How so?"
"I'll show you.." Alpine replied, as the two got to their feet.
He took Data by the hand and led him out the door.
That evening was truly one Data could describe as memorable. The
first stop was Holodeck 2. There, Alpine managed to conjure up
a beautiful starlit night atop a grassy knoll, with a forest nearby.
A full moon was in the sky and the program was detailed right down
to the leaves on the trees and the sound of crickets and an occasional
katydid in the cool night breeze. Along with the holodeck program,
Alpine had planned another surprise, in the form of a steak dinner
that he had made himself in preparation of this night. Though Data
did not need food to function, he and Alpine sat out under the stars
on a blanket and ate their dinner by candlenight, and he finished
every bite, savouring the flavour.
After digesting and cleaning up a little, the two took a walk and
gazed up at the stars and at the fireflies playing hide and seek
in the night sky. Shortly thereafter, they came across a pond nearby
and wound up skinnydipping in the cool water. They laughed and
played and splashed each other, and Alpine gave Data a quick lesson
in using his built-in floatation device to his advantage and showing
him how to swim. After a few false starts, Data got the idea and
soon took to the water like a fish, his lover by his side.
After an hour or so in the water they lay naked on the grass cuddled
up to each other and made love in the moonlight. Gentle caresses
lingered longer. Touches were more delicate and sensual. Embraces
were tighter. And when they both came simultaneously they cried
out each other's names and held each other tight, whispering promises
of undying love and bonds never to be broken. Afterwards, as Data
lay upon Alpine's chest and gazed down at him, suddenly it all became
overwhelming. Eyes brimming with amber tears he buried his face
into Alpine's shoulder and wept softly into his fur. Alpine held
him tight and let him cry, his own tears threatening to fall.
"Data, it's okay, everything will be okay..I'll be back soon.."
he whispered, trying to soothe the heartbroken android.
"But...I will..will miss you." Data sobbed. "It hurts so much..I
do not wish for us to be apart.." Data began to cry harder and
Alpine's ears folded back, the pain in Data's voice enhancing his
own difficulty with having to leave the android behind for a month.
Finally he swallowed back his own tears and found his voice. Sitting
up, he cradled the android against his chest and nuzzled his hair.
"Data..it's okay...honest it is. We're going to be apart, physically.
But we don't have to be apart in spirit." He stared up at the
stars and added, "How about we think of each other as..omnipotent?"
Data sniffled and craned his head up at Alpine, his face streaked
with yellow tears. "Omnipotent..like..like Q?" Alpine shook his
head, looking down, his eyes meeting Data's. "No, not like that.
Let's say...I'm omnipotent. Not like a god, or your mother...but
like a dream that convinces you that you're falling." Data thought
this over, a stray tear rolling down his cheek. Alpine gently wiped
the tear away and explained further. "If you believe in me enough,
and I believe in you..it doesn't even have to feel like we're apart,
because the bond we have will make it seem like neither of us are
actually away from the other. Think of it as a funny little mind
trick. And before you know it, I'll be back home and in your arms
again. How does that sound? Shall we give it a try?"
Data managed a smile, snuggling up to Alpine. "I think...I think that will work just fine."
*******
Three weeks later, Alpine and the crew were just starting to wrap
up the mission, and when he got a chance he sent a message to Data:
"The mission, as you know has been a success. The Sjon Myhr, as
they are known, are a fascinating culture! And their planet is
beautiful! I'm going to have to show you sometime. There are many
unpopulated areas we could visit where no one would know we were
there. I miss you, Data. I love you so much, and it's only another
week before I'll be home again!"
Data read the message over and over again, and smiled again, feeling
a warm sensation in his heart. "Oh Alpine," he thought. "In ways
it is almost like you never left."
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